Victory over depression, self-harm & attempted suicide

Firstly, All Glory to God!

My name is Tony and as of today, I have been born again for 3 years and 2 months.

It took me 55 years to accept the fact that I am so loved by God that HE sent HIS only Son, Jesus, to die on the cross so that our sins would be cleansed by HIS blood. I know now that God loved me even in my early teens when I walked away from the faith I was baptised into.

HE loved me even through the years when I denied HIS existence, through my teen and into my early 20`s.

HE loved me through the years of heartache after my first marriage fell apart.

HE loved me through 30 years of major depression.

And HE really loved me through several suicide attempts and years of self-harm.

He loved me through time spent in psychiatric wards.

He loved me through E.C.T. (Electro Convulsion Therapy) and prescription drugs that was supposed to help my illness.

He loved me through all my self-medicating. That`s a polite way to describe my drinking and taking drugs.

He loved me even when I looked for meaning in all the wrong places.

He loved me so much that He lifted the fog of depression and the need for prescription drugs from my life in 2007. I know now it was HIS divine intervention.

God loves me so much that 3 years 2 months ago, I was led through the front doors of Real Life Church. Here I was born again and welcomed back into God`s arms.

I am so loved by God that I was freed from my chains of self-medication within a month!

God so loved me that HIS hand kept me from descending to the depths my wanderings could and would take me.

I love God because HE first loved me.

As a new Christian, these words from Psalm 25: 4-11 spoke to me.

“Show me the right path, o Lord:
Point out the road for me to follow.
Lead me by your truth and teach me,
For you are the God who saves me.
All the day long I put my hope in you.
Remember, O Lord, your compassion and unfailing love,
Which you have shown from long ages past.
Do not remember the rebellious sins of my youth.
Remember me in the light of your unfailing love,
For you are merciful, O Lord.
The Lord is good and does what is right,
He shows the proper path to those who go astray.
He leads the humble in doing right, teaching them his way.
The Lord leads with unfailing love and faithfulness
All who keep his covenant and obey his demands.
For the honour of your name, O Lord, forgive my many, many sins.”